I've been posting to blogspot lately because their journal goes to www.Xuqa.com. I don't know if I will stay there or not, but if u want to see my thoughts hit me up:

www.black-berry.blogspot.com

Its kind of plain. Maybe I'll develop the bg eventually.

~peace,

@~

I'm sorry yall, I just been mad busy lately.

Sooo


This is what happened to me lately

~He got me
~Medicine delivered
~Gave Blood
~Swimming
~Booger on forehead
~Duck Hunt


~He got me

The other day, my frat from kkpsi came over to teach me some strolls. We had fun. I had gone to church with him earlier that day. I'm not really feeling his church though. Anyway, I had trouble getting my slide down, I got it now. Eventually I started feeling bad cuz it was "that time of the month" and I laid down. He was watching tv and eventually came over and rubbed my belly (cuz it hurt). Eventually I fell asleep and thats when I had to get up and let him out.. so I could lock the door back. So... I gave him a hug bye and he was trying to hold me a little too long. So I let go and grabbed the door... he hugged me again. I knew what was coming.. So I opened the door and tried to kinda push him out but he caught me off guard and smacked me. I was dissapointed. I thought I was going to have another David..... or something close.. someone in the frat I could just chill with and talk to without having to worry about him trying to kiss me. Or do other things to me for that matter. Thank God that it lasted about 1/4 of a second and he left right after that. I don't know how to approach that situation. "I just wanna be your friend" will just run him off.. *sigh*

~The next morning I felt so bad I was in the bed at 12pm. I called Law and he brought me some Ibuprofen... I felt so much better after that! Pudd told me this joke once about a dude on death row. He had one last wish and he asked for a tampon. They said why... He said.. cuz I can run, jump, skip, play and swim!!

get it?

haha

~Anyway, I gave blood later that day. I still feel kinda drained of energy. I'm surprised that I could give it. Usually when I'm on my period my iron is too low.

~Then I went swimming. I had fun. There was a butt load of people there too. When I left, I started to walk back.. I didn't drive down there. Someone offered me a ride up and i took it.. I was kind of tired at that point. Anyway... he was asking if he could chill w/ me that night. I told him I was chillin with my friends. (he was straight, but I didn't know him that well for him to want to "chill" with me. He said he was pretty sure he would see me later. I said ok. Went in my room and looked in the mirror. There was something pale and slimy on my forehead near my eyebrow. .... There was a booger on my forehead.

eww..

And he was trying to holla at me anyway?

eww..

I know he saw it cuz the light came on when I opened the door.... erwwww....

That's gross.

how the HELL did i get a BOOGER on my FOREHEAD???


i don't know.


So for all of you that think i just talk about other people on my blog... don't say I never said anything about myself.

I gotta admit... that's embarrasing.


So I went over law, marcus and snoop's house. We had that old school nintendo out. It was fun. I played mario and duck hunt. I'm so bout it bout it... I'll mirk some ducks mayne!!



So anyway.. Jennifer, Isabel, Tiffany and this other girl I know are trying to see who can get the most numbers in a month. The catch is.... you have to make them think you are actually getting their number because you like them (unlike me, who will just walk up to someone and be like: what's your number?)


I don't know if I want to get in on it... it seems wrong in a way.. but dang.. I'm asking for a number... not proposing. hmm... I'll ponder on it a little.

By the way.. my little cousin gave me a nick name... They have been giving everyone they talk to on a regular cave names. Mine is thunder. Thunder is strong.

Thunder tell world bye bye.

Thunder say holla.

So...

As yall know.. Alot of things tend to happen to me in a short period of time. yesterday....

~I made a skirt
~I was "relieved" of my duties as a Red Bull MET
~I got ran off of the free way.
~I had a Black Sac meeting
~The sigmas had a probate
~The sigmas had a party
~The sigmas... had another party



- Well.... I had an incident yesterday where I must have looked at the wrong schedule or whatever for red bull and the schedule I looked at didn't have me working on Thursday....
So at 1:37pm, I'm pulling up to the Galleria to get a hat made for a friend of mine that I knew was coming out last night. I get a call.

me: Hello
manager: HEY Jessica, how are you doing?
me: I'm great, how are you?
manager: I'm fine... when Vic switched shifts with you yesterday, did you switch days today?
me: no, I'm not scheduled to work today
manager: I'm SURE you are scheduled today.
me: (starting to stutter) I didn't see my name on the list... I looked several times (which is tru. I was looking forward to thursday because of the probate)
manager: well let me go inside and check again, I'll call you back.
me: ( waited for about 15-20 minutes in my hot car waiting for a call back, my heart going 100 b/m)

manager: Sorry it took so long for me to call you. Vic and June came in from their shift late. But yea, I was right. You are on the schedule. Can you be here by 2:30?

me: (shaky) yea

So I leave the galleria... which is a good 30- 40 min from my work place and race there. I debated on stopping to get my clothes, but I knew I would be late if I did. I didn't kknow what was going to happen. I figured I could put on a sweater there.


On my way to get off of the exit to my job, however, someone ran me off of the road. I almost ran into the wall.

If I wasn't stressed enough.. o boy.
Apparently I was on his blind side. He waved his apology to me several times. I'm not mad at him but it damn near gave me a heart attack.

So I get there and he offers me a red bull. I take it and he has his lap top out with the contract we signed on it.

He goes through all this BS telling me why he was going to "let me go" then asked me if I had any other excuses. I'm like no, I'm not going to lie.. That's exactly why I missed the shift.

so he told me to go back and bring my clothes.

Which I was slightly upset about because I passed my room on the way back from the galleria.

Oddly enough I felt better later because I just don't think it was meant for me to have that job. I have never had a problem like that any where else except at Red Bull. I feel like God must have something out there that is better for me. I tried my HARDEST there and it didn't work out, which is something I'm not used to. Besides, I was nothing but stressed out while I worked there. I do appreciate my training though, it will help me in any other job I try to get.

So anyway, I brought my clothes back and he gave me a case of Red Bull which was nice of him. The case will probably last me about a year.

Any way...

I tried to get back to the Galleria after that but by that time the traffic was hell. There was no way I would make it to the Black Sac meeting that night if I did that.

So I checked my email and got applications for a work study job and a job as a driver at pizza hut. I also intend to apply to work at Best Buy and a clothing store in 5 points. Someone advised Ruby Tuesdays, but the salary isn't dependable enough for me. While I checked my email (in the DJ booth) someone came by and left me fliers for a youth conference. I passed them out at the meeting.


The meeting went pretty well. Saderius accidentally called me the COC when I am the CCOC. I'll talk about that sometime later.

Afterwards, I got dressed for the probate. I made this skirt earlier that morning of some old work pants I had when I worked for Aramark. It was a lil short. I didn't feel comfortable sitting down in it. For someone with skinner legs, no one would have thought twice, but my thighs are very thick. To some that gave the allusion that the skirt was super short. It came to about where my hands where on my thighs when I put them down. Any way, next time I'll be sure to make it longer, if anything, for my comforts sake. MARCUS, MARIO, and FRANK did SOOOO well!!! I was so proud of them. I'm going to still get that hat made for Marcus. I have to wait on my second to last pay check from Red Bull though... *sigh*


The block party was fun. I learned about 3 new party hops (strolls)
I saw Torry there.
I also saw Jessie.

Wow... is all I can say.
Jessie.. I can't even look at Jessie straight. He is so off limits I feel wrong for even glancing in his direction. (he reminds me so much of Brandon though.. just a cuter version)

Torry, he was jokin on how sweaty I was. I told him it was because him, and we both laughed
he rolled his eyes because he knew it wasn't tru.

Carl was there too... at least he wasn't drunk today... The day before yesterday he was TORE UP, it was hilarious. I told him he was a hoe today and he is convinced I'm wrong, lol.

Then we went to Ced's house for a party. Jennifer felt like messing with the sigma's there so she kept feeling me up to make them think we were gay. I have to admit, it was kind of funny, but I don't want anyone to think that about me.

Afterwards I dropped Jenn and Iz off and went to eat with Ced, Marcus and Frank at Al's.

It was funny cuz there were people fighting inside while I was ordering my food and it was kind of disturbing.

They continued the fight outside where we ate. ..... then a drag queen walked into al's.

At that point in time, the guys thought it would be a good idea to leave.

I took Ced home.. cuz he was... F*CKED UP.




and that was my night....


well almost. I had a date with BOB.

then I went to sleep.

woke up about 1:50 like... wtf happened.

Hey everyone...

I know I took a hiatus, I should be back into business soon. I'm going to get dsl and another hardrive so that I can have more space on my pc. . . then you all will be seeing and hearing more of me. I know you miss me.


It surprises me how many people read my blog. I'm flattered.


Anyway.... about 3 days ago I cut up an old UAB basketball shirt I had. It was worn around the collor and I didn't wear it too much any way. I adjusted it to fit my body and cut slits in the sleeves... then tied them up. I put a wife beater underneath so I wouldn't show too much of my boooody. (ya know, didn't want to cause crashes and such).

I got alot of compliments... alot of people hit on me that day...

but of course there is always negative feedback. One of my sorors' boyfriend told me that it was a waste of clothes. I wish he could explain to me how that could be if I was wearing the shirt. I like it better than I did before so I will probably wear it often. smh.

Anyway,

I picked up some thread and needles so I could hem it up. Hopefully, if I do that, I can wash it and it will last longer. When I get my cord for my camera, Ill show you all my latest creations.





Bad news....

i went over my bill by about 170 minutes. My mother is going to kill me.

BUT...

I took precaution and I'm going to send her a 100 dollar bill through wally world today... hopefully that will calm her down a bit.




I had a movie night the night before last.

It was kind of lame.... sadly.

I held it for my little cousin.. who is actually 19 because he was bored and he was home from school for the summer.. So I thought he might meet some of my friends. ..


He left before the movie started, I was kind of upset to say the least.

upset to the point where I don't care if he becomes a Kappa or not.

he stays in those pink shirts, smh.
yuck.

he's always talking about how everyone wants to pick him up, but he says he is leaning toward the Kappas. I really wished he would pick what was best for him, but I just wish it wasn't the kappas. My least favorite frat. I don't hate them... I just would hesitate... seriously, dating one.



Well,

I got Reason on my pc.

Now I have to figure out how to use it. I got rid of Fruity loops. It was garbage. I made some beats on this thing my friend had and they said they were fire. I'll upload one when I get a change. I'm really excited about this Reason thing. Maybe I can get into small time producing.



This is a public announcement.

I'm tired of being single.

Yes. The mighty Berry has succombed to the forces of nature and is ready to settle down.

Being single is great and all and I needed to be single for a while to get myself together. I enjoy my time with Jennifer and my friends but I need:

Someone to put my time and effort into.
To be held by someone who loves me. (I miss that so much)
To be able to talk to someone about anything.. whenever we want to.
Someone who can understand where I'm coming from.
Someone who GENUINELY cares for ME. Who can respect me and what I want, I don't ask for much.
Someone I can keep giving to.
Someone who is honest, trustworthy and has the patience to deal with me.
Someone who understands my reasons for being natural, loves and supports it.
Someone who is strong, open minded and able to have an intelligent convo.
Someone who can keep me motivated.
Someone who tries their best to do what is right and cares for others.
Someone I can do mushy stuff with and for and not feel stupid as hell.

.. it helps if they are into music, talented in someway (music, art, theater, computers...) and willing to try new things.

what I have to give: everything, except my dignity.

physically: I have to be able to look at you... or it just won't work.

btw... I won't go out with anyone wearing a pink or lavender shirt. You better turn around and change that shit.

Not that I think its gay.... .but... its gay.

lol, j/k. Actually, that's what most people think my reasons are... but that's not it. I actually think that it's just ugly. I don't wear pink and it makes men look weak and lame to me. Not always gay.


Jennifer told me she would give me a $50 bill if I could find a boyfriend that I actually liked by the end of August. Think I can do it?

Stay tuned.





Oh... and by the way.


Those of you who complain about my blog to your friends and what not...

try taking it up with me. you can do that 3 ways:

~send me and email at berry.unique@gmail.com
~leave a comment at the end of the entry
~or leave a tag message


I dare you.

punk butt sissies.

ps... i auditioned for a film

i think i got the part... keep ur fingers crossed.

First things first.


Nick, I hope you get exactly what you deserve.  You know what I'm talking about.  I should put your ass on blast, but since I don't want to make things worse for her than they already are, I wont do that shit.

I have over 9,000 hits to my blog. SOMEONE you know will read it.



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BREATHE.

An update has been requested.

I'm more than happy to oblige....



Friday



I saw Common at City Stages.  My baby's father. He owes me child support. 

on the reals though...

I was so excited. He is amazing and he says exactly what he thinks in his music. Of course I admire and appreciate that.  Carl thought he could get me in free, but it didn't quite work out that way.  It cost more than expected... to say the least. 

On a good note, I got some shea butter... which is, besides seeing Common, the only thing that kept me happy despite the following circumstances....

Well... I'll get to those in a minute.

It's not me.   I just wanted to see reactions on face book... i got plenty, lol.

Hi....


I've received several complaints from different people about my blog.

I don't lie in my blog...  In fact,  if  I ever end up talking about u in my blog....    I tell you how I feel first...

EX:

I wrote samuels a letter telling her exactly how i felt before i even thought about writing her in my blog.